I had a dream, last night and the night before, that me and my ex fiancé were best friends again. For those of you who don’t know, that relationship was very toxic. It traumatizing for me and my children in a lot of ways. For years, I have held onto resentment no matter how many cord cutting meditations I did. No matter how much I prayed to forgive her, something deep within me held onto the memories of the pain that I endured. Life after trauma is interesting. No matter how hard you try, you can’t just get over it so easy. It’s like having a broken leg. It takes time in the cast to heal. When the cast is gone, it still takes time to get back to normal, if you aren’t left with permanent scar that reminds you of the pain of injury. Spiritual trauma is hard to recover from without a guide. I have called on the Holy Spirit for years to guide me into the deepest healing and remind me of who I am at a soul level.
On this journey, the dreams and meditations take me deeper, day by day, month by month and year by year. I trust my pace of healing. I knew that when I was called to Ocean Springs that healing would occur on a deeper level, but I didnt expect what I have been experiencing in my dreams lately.
In the dream, I was at her house and she was showing me around, like she couldn’t wait to tell me all the things she wanted to do to it. We were celebrating her and her new love. As I walked through the kitchen, I remembered all the good memories of cooking on the stove she had bought me for Christmas.
I made so many family meals over those burners. I was happy to know that I left good energy there for her. It felt like the dream was real. It wasn’t her walking me through the home though. It was the happiest and highest version of her, someone I would have adored for a lifetime. It was my best friend, a woman I wanted the best for. We were so proud of each other. It was a different timeline or lifetime, something so beautiful.
I didnt want to wake up. I loved what I felt in that quantum reality, as my spirit was telling a new story.
“Y’all were bad ass together.”, my Otha Muva Georgette used to tell me. We certainly were and this dream reminded me of how high it made me feel to be around genius. This time it felt like pure intention. It felt so good.
My subconscious is taking me back to rewrite some things. I love how the Spirit works when you’re surrendered to something greater. I am usually the one helping people rewrite memories through meditation. It’s not me though. It’s something far greater than me who does the work within my own spirit so I can see what I need to do In order to help others.
It’s been years now since I have surrendered to the Spirit of the Most High. Every dream or meditation takes me on a journey within.
The deeper I go, the more I realize the meaning behind, you reap what you sow.
In due time, the harvest comes. It’s coming. I feel it, because I am making room for it spiritually. That is the key. You have to make room for the good that is right in front of you.
If you are looking to release yourself from some traumas or past experiences that are holding you back emotionally, I would love to be the vessel that guides you into the emotional freedom you deserve.
You can text me at 228-300-1887. I am here for whatever the Holy Spirit is guiding you towards.
With the Deepest Love,
Paige Elliott
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