I’ve been wanting to write more, but I am working on a project in Gulfport and focusing on the June 6-10 retreat and my book. I went to Ocean Springs for a permit for SWLA YOGA FEST and I realized that they have a delicate process for approvals. I don’t think it would be in my best interest to force a festival. So I talked to my friends and we agreed to do something simple on the beach in Gulfport with someone who has already gotten approvals for their event.
Breezy’s sister is a really successful therapist on the Coast. She is transitioning into sound immersion out of a soul calling. She is powerful! She just doesn’t know her real power yet. She will see it soon. Anyway, she is throwing a Grand Opening Ceremony on March 24, 2024 from 4-10pm on the beach in Gulfport. I am helping her to coordinate the details. It will be a mini festival. She the SWLA YOGA FEST and Deep Gyspea crew in, so she must be up to something amazing. I’ll give you more details as we work them out. I will lead meditation. Rachel will lead breath work. Magen will lead cacao ceremony and the host will lead sound immersion before the live acoustic set and drum circle.
It’s going to be one of the most amazing days! Just imagine SWLA YOGA FEST but on the Gulf Shore. WOW! I can’t wait.
Besides that, the book is coming along. I am editing too much of what is already written. My author friend told me that it’s best I stop re reading because my editing will never stop. At a certain point you just have to keep going. So that’s the plan for the next week.
I am thankful for my friend group. They are honest with me. I like to believe that I am the person who people can unfold in front of. I know that I have my shadows. I have my bad side. “I will never defend anything dark within me.”, I said to one of my best friends. I had triggered her and she wanted to tell me about it. She’s the type that wants everyone to love each other. She sees no fault in people. So it takes a lot for her to boldly confront someone. When she confronted me, I was so proud. It didnt matter if she triggered me. I loved watching her stand in her power and practice what we preach.
“Love”, I said as I explained the reason that we can listen to each other. What did Christ do? Christ wasn’t worried about rules. He wanted to show people what love felt like. That’s what I want to do. It’s not always easy in this world. As a single mother, it had been so difficult trying to keep up with laundry, make sure the house is clean, meet the kids emotional needs, and work. Every now and then I wasn’t at my best. I snap at people. I get overstimulated. I hate when too many people are talking at once. I am bossy too apparently. I was bossy to my friend and she felt safe enough to say that. It made me really happy to know that I emulate love even when I am so imperfect. Besides, Breezy is really starting to help me a lot around my house. He is good to me. I mean, really good to me. The more easy things become, the better I feel within myself.
Now, that I am starting to see what could be in a partnership, I am able to think even more clearly. I forgot what that felt like. I feel like I had learned to breathe underwater. I was content with that reality. I forgot what air felt like in my spirit. I can breathe fresh air again. It feels nice. The more air I can breathe, the more people I can love. Needless to say, I am G R O U N D E D. Thanks ironically to Breezy, the air guy.
We have deep conversations about our boundaries. “I can tell you are not used to someone being in your space.”, he told me as he laughed when I couldn’t stand the bathroom light being on. We go back and forth as we kindly hold mirrors up to each other. “Show me the mirror. Challenge me.”, he tells me. He pushes me too. I love it. “Let’s go!”, he said as he grabbed my hand to pull me towards my gym. I hibernated during the winter and hadn’t been back in months. We are in there every day now. He wants what is best for me and I love that.
We have a deep connection. It’s different than any overwhelming love I have ever experienced. This is something soft and gentle. He makes me want to be a better woman and helps me so that I can be. I haven’t worked up the nerve to post anything super official on my social channels. I am still giving it time. We care about each other, but time is necessary.
I just feel grounded and that is a feeling I haven’t felt in more than half a decade. I had done all this work to rest within myself. I meditate every day. I lean into service. I take care of myself and my mind. This feeling is different than what I had cultivated on my own. I tell him all the time that I feel like I am touching the Earth when he touches me. “All the men that let you go were stupid. Watch how I take care of you.”, he tells me. Again, time will tell. You know better than anyone else just how passionate my life is with anyone who enters. So, I am mindful of both ends of the spectrum. This feels healthy.
Just keep me in your prayers. My intention is to truly narrow in and build a beautiful life of service that reflects my essence.
I am doing it. Hopefully that gets easier as Breezy and I build a life together.
Here’s to hope.
PS: The first house on the retreat is fully booked. We purchased another spot and have 6 more spaces available. I would LOVE to hop on a call if you’re interested I joining us June 6-10 in Ocean Springs, MS. Email me anytime paigevidrineinc@yahoo.com. The investment is only $750.00 and the experience will be truly priceless.
With the Deepest Love,
Your Friend, Paige Elliott
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